Wednesday, May 20, 2015

In memory of past lives and black socks

There has been a world of change on my end since my last quarterly report. I am writing from Istanbul, where I arrived a few days ago after passing through Madrid after flying from Bali to Paris. In short, it has been a whirlwind of culture shock--particularly upon arrival in Europe. I was despondent and mopey (to put it lightly) for days after leaving Bali. 

Nora and me with the bride and her friends at a Balinese wedding (where I played rebab)! 
Entry way to Balinese wedding

As I made more connections in Bali, 'jammed out' with more musicians, and was invited to play on more concerts, it seemed that I had hit a new musical stride in Bali and should ride it out. I basically said yes to every performance or collaboration invitation that came my way, and as a result, towards the last few months of my time in Indonesia, I was performing almost nightly in different venues (sometimes giving one performance on one side of the island and then biking to the other side to play another gig). I played with spiritual healers and reggae masters, I played rebab in a traditional Balinese wedding and also played in three shows in Bali Spirit, the island's largest annual music festival. Imagine hundreds of blissed-out, tattooed, dreadlocked hippies in one place peddling leather fanny packs and practicing their acro-yoga. After Bali Spirit one of the other performers came up and asked me if I had been using a distortion pedal--"It sounded like you were playing an electric guitar! It was awesome!" Another memorable comment from a different performance: "Audrey, I listen to you improvise and I am sure in your past life you were a Javanese person." (As said by a Javanese musician!)

A tangent about dreadlocked yogic hippies: In my various collaborations with Hindu chant leaders and Native American flute-toting medicine men, I had somehow carved out a niche for myself performing with sound healers. After a laughably pretentious recording session in which a medicine man repeatedly criticized me for not capturing the "essence of the night birds and rising dawn" in my musical "invocation of the divine through mystic poetry," I found myself at a dinner with many of his compatriots. It took me about half an hour of them talking about "the potency of the Grandfather" for me to grasp that they were talking about hallucinogens. Anyways, a Hawaiian shamaness and self-proclaimed channel of Gaia, the Mother Earth, heard about my violin playing and recruited me to perform with her at Bali Spirit. I eagerly agreed and showed up the following afternoon to her home. Picture a scantily-clad, heavily-tassled woman with a large lotus tattooed over her uterus playing crystal bowls, her emasculated partner Shamiracle, who could apparently do no right as she continued to scold him throughout the afternoon every time he hit a drum or blew a conch, a rhinestoned Russian with the plastic surgery of a former porn star who had recently changed her name in an Indian ceremony (and became increasingly annoyed as the other ensemble members continued to forget it), and Vasu Dev, a Norwegian with John Lennon glasses whose name belied how short his fuse was. And then there was me, wondering if I came off as way too normal to be part of the group, or if my musical journey through China and Indonesia qualified me as unorthodox enough to be one of them. In any case, they accepted me as one of their own. It was an interesting musical experience--on one hand, much of the spirituality with which the sound healers sought to imbue the music sort of cheapened it for me, but on the other hand, the lotus-tattooed singer had a beautiful and incredibly unique singing style that drew on overtones and yodels, and the freedom and presence with which she improvised was extremely effective.

Performing with Rizal at Bali Spirit Festival 

Being pulled into the spiritual undertow of Bali's expat scene was actually a really valuable experience for me as a musician. None of the sound healers I met had formal music training; as a result, it was really interesting to witness and experience their approach to creating music. Nothing was really off-limits (and in many cases, the more bizarre and experimental, the better) and for me it was a very safe environment to experiment musically as well. The result in some cases was music that would be considered really avant-garde in a different setting. In one show Agustian, Miyoshi, and percussionist Arif and I improvised a piece in nine (an unusual time meter) based on the theme of the change from the rainy to dry season while Sako, Arif's wife and talented dancer, did contemporary dance; however, catering to the Eat-Pray-Lovers, the concert was advertised simply as an "ethnic fusion" journey to "meditation," which again I think diminished how nuanced and multi-faceted the piece was.

Sako, me, Arif, Miyoshi, and Agustian after our concert
I even graduated to writing, singing, playing my own songs, which was one of the most thrilling experiences for me because it was something I had never dreamed of doing before. I was surrounded by people from so many cultures and backgrounds doing just that and playing in their concerts, and soon realized that there was nothing stopping me from doing the same. I would brainstorm, create, and record a rough draft of a new song, and then show it to my friends, who would add their own instruments and musical ideas to it. They encouraged me to perform my own songs (and made time in their own shows for me to do so). I was initially really nervous since it was entirely new to me, but I went for it and received really great responses. I was so encouraged when an audience member came up to me and said, "You have an amazing voice--be proud of it and stand tall!"

Another huge highlight towards the end of my time in Bali was having my friend Nora visit me. Nora is traveling around the world on a traveling fellowship of her own exploring cultures that eat bugs, and sent me a message that she was thinking of popping over to Bali for a week or so on her way out from a month in Papua New Guinea. She asked if she could crash with me, and I, valuing my personal space but unwilling to tell her to "get a room," begrudgingly offered to host her. We ended up having a phenomenal time, and at my urging she stayed for the better part of a month. She has been traveling independently at the same time as me doing entirely different things, and it was incredible to hear about her experiences and compare successes and failures. She is one of the few people I have encountered thus far who can understand what it's like to make connections while transient, pursue an esoteric project in a foreign place, and watch the holes in your underwear get bigger and bigger. (One of my greatest triumphs was dragging Nora to replace her pants after a bumpy motorbike ride made it clear that the purple patches holding them together were no match for the life of a traveling fellow.) We sought out dragonflies for her to eat and introduced her to wandering hippies as "Peekaboo Nevernude, owner of Tissle-Tassle, a tassled clothing boutique" ("But my friends call me Boo!") It was great having her--as a traveling fellow, she is totally used to being independent and would set out for solo adventures while I would have rehearsals; at the same time, we totally related to one another and there were no limits on the fun we would poke at the mishaps we had had over the course of our travels.

Speaking of entertaining mishaps, Nora joined me and my friend Agustian to travel to his village in Sumatra for his sister's wedding blessing ceremony. As soon as we arrived, I was so grateful she was there--his relatives and neighbors overwhelmed us with hospitality and requests to take photos, and as the token foreigners in a village where few will encounter outsiders we were shuttled all day from one house to the next for photo ops while people continued to ask if (or assume) we were Agustian's fourth and fifth wives. I soon got really exasperated--I generally reject people who ask to take my photo on account of my being white, but it was impossible to do that to Agustian's family and friends, all of whom seemed to each have a few phones that each needed at least four photos...We stopped at three hospitals and took photos with all of the nurses and midwives, we stopped at the home of the village elder and took photos with village representatives there, we even stopped at a police checkpoint and, instead of paying a bribe, took a photo with the police. (We were later featured in the regional news.) Nora remained a good sport throughout, and when we were brought to Agustian's friend's family home late at night after a long day of posing and confronted the family waiting for us with karaoke, she took the microphone and sang campfire favorite "Black Socks" in the style of Indonesian dangdut music. What a champ.

Black Socks (lyrics)
Black socks
They never get dirty
The longer you wear them
The blacker they get 
I think I should wash them
But something inside me
Keeps telling me,
"No, not yet, not yet, not yet..."
One high point of the trip was journeying out to Gua Putri, a legendary Sumatran cave outside of Lampung. The myth goes that a princess was taking a bath when a man passed by and catcalled her. When she didn't respond to his comments (big surprise) he commented that, to ignore his flattering words, she must be made of stone--and lo and behold, she turned into stone, becoming the Gua Putri cave. This is a mythological manifestation of kutukan, sort of like the power of suggestion or the power of the word (for negative results). Anyways, sort of channeling fantastic musician Andrew Bird's recent project, Echolocations, in which he makes recordings in unusual settings (most recently, the canyons of Utah), Agustian and I brought the bamboo flutes and violin into Gua Putri, sought out the most resonant spaces, and had some fun improvising (I also played some Bach--typical.)

The loveliest-sounding part of Gua Putri 

Men in Indonesia often collect gemstones, carry them around and/or turn them into rings,
and show them off at every opportunity

After our short jaunt in Sumatra, Nora and I spent a few days in Jakarta while Agustian visited his other sister, and then parted ways as she set off to Laos and I returned for my final week in Bali. Feeling that I had become inspired, but also perhaps too comfortable, in Bali, I impulsively bought tickets to Madrid, deciding to visit my longtime best friend Rebecca on her Fulbright before making my way to Istanbul. 

The reality of my decision started to set in a few days before my departure. Perhaps you can imagine how difficult it was to leave such an environment. People would see me on the street and know me as "the violinist," and when I would go out, I would always see people I knew. I was conversational in Indonesian language--not enough to be particularly interesting to talk with, but enough to venture off aimlessly on my motorbike, get lost, barter for something, explain my purpose in Bali, get invited to someone's village, know when I was being talked about, and get back again. Indonesia was an incredible incubator for creativity, one that fostered collaboration over competition, and a place where people were constantly encouraging one another to feel more, love more, create more without any rush or deadline to do so. For me, a chronically-busy and uptight classical musician, it was exactly the shot in the arm I needed (I remember being too terrified to try to improvise when I first arrived four months ago!), and leaving it I became so scared that I wouldn't bring that spirit of creativity and non-urgency with me--that I would be too scared or too uninspired to carry on without those people who supported and taught me.

My friend Mark, who I met on my first night in Ubud, invited me to play at his collective's open mic night the following day, and essentially triggered and supported my period of musical creativity in Indonesia, hosted a farewell party for me the night before I left Bali. It was tremendous to see everyone from different arenas of my life on the island come together, meet each other, and make music. My rebab teacher met a local artist and flute player, my fellow Seven Sisters graduates met Lanny and her family, who had hosted me when I first arrived in Bali, Soraya (my partner in crime for the last Terunyan trip) met Miyoshi (my partner in music-making). People who I had played music with and played music for all came out, and it was an amazing testament that in some small way, I had joined a community and made a network. The only one who didn't come was Agustian, who was apparently too sad to come. ("Someone stepped on my flute. G#. It's broken now. And I thought it would be too sad for me to be there.") 
Farewell party jam session
I wept my way to Madrid, and spent the following days sitting shiva for my time in Bali. I had arrived in Madrid and reunited with Rebecca, who was in her chemistry lab during the weekdays, leaving me with nothing but time to mourn leaving my friends, my motorbike, my inspiration. Beyond missing the people I had left behind, I was terrified that "you can't take it with you"; namely, that I was losing the permission I had received in Bali to take risks, try new things as a musician, and think outside the box. I was utterly unable to do anything; my schedule consisted of waking up, weeping to Sufjan Steven's album "Carrie and Lowell," inspired by the loss of his mother to cancer, listening to the rough recordings from jamming out with my friends in Bali, crooning softly to myself, and repeating. Poor Rebecca, who had probably expected a more festive reunion, was a great sport about striking a balance between watching me sob and dragging me out of her tiny apartment. We did have a great time, all things considered (and I'll make it up to her when she comes to visit me in Istanbul in a few days); she took me to see a Steve Reich concert and violinist Joshua Bell's performance with the National Orchestra, we had tapas and paella, and saw as much as we could see in one day at the Prado.

I was indeed in a period of mourning, but now that I have arrived in Istanbul and gotten a glimpse of the sheer abundance of culture that seems to be oozing out of the city, I am encouraged that in a way things here will be "same-same but different," as they say in Indonesia. I have connected with a kamence player who is eager to take me on as his student, let me shadow his rehearsals and work at Turkish National Radio, performed my first concert, befriended a national living legend/inventor of the fretless guitar, and am on the cusp of meeting many more musicians (as soon as I can send off some emails). It's really hard starting over, especially since everything feels unfamiliar and foreign again, but at the same time I have faith that leaving Bali to get a new perspective in Turkey will be worthwhile and fulfilling. It has been already--more to come soon!

Illustration of me playing violin by my dear friend Miyoshi

Thursday, May 07, 2015

Loud and cocky on Silent Day

(Super belated, but one must start somehow...)
Temple at Terunyan (with Mount Batur)
I went back and looked at the time stamp on my last blog post, and felt reassured that it had only been a few weeks since I last wrote--everyone gets busy from time to time, right?--but then I remembered what month it is and realized that it's been nearly two months without a post. My blogging hiatus is not a testament to how little I've been doing, but rather how many rich experiences have been jam-packed into the last six weeks, from making two more pilgrimages to the Bali Aga village of Terunyan to  performing shows in the largest music festival on the island. I also went to Singapore and back, hosted my family for nearly two weeks, started writing and singing my own songs, and have played around twenty concerts in the last month and a half. Even as I write this, it's not quite a quiet moment--I am en route to Sumatra with my college friend (and fellow travel grant recipient) Nora and fantastic artist and flutist Agustian, whose sister's wedding blessing ceremony we are attending. In short, waiting on some quality downtime for reflection and blogging has not proven successful, so I'm seizing this moment in travel limbo to try to bring the blog up to speed.

I was extremely excited after meeting a handful of Indonesian musicians who were eager to collaborate on new musical projects. I met Rizal, instrument builder and singer-songwriter who told me he wanted me to perform with him on all of his concerts and that he wanted to build me an electric bamboo violin. I met violinist Miyoshi, who walked me through his artistic process, including building his own amplification system, writing songs, and using a loop station. I got to know artist and flute player Agustian much better, and inadvertently got an incredible education in improvisation, uninhibited stage presence, and not worrying too much. Through them I began to meet even more locally-based musicians, and with these connections came more opportunities to play in new styles with different players and perform in various venues around Bali. 

As I made more connections, 'jammed out' with more musicians, and was invited to play on more concerts, it seemed that I had hit a new musical stride in Bali and should ride it out, even though my visa was soon to expire. Thus, I made plans to hop over to Singapore for a few days and get a new Indonesian visa. The trip came at just the right time--days before I was slated to leave, I opened my case only to see my violin in pieces. After one too many rainy motorbike rides, the glue that holds the violin's wooden neck and body together had loosened and the entire thing had essentially exploded. Definitely a gory scene for this violinist. There is no classical music scene on Bali, and so my Singapore visa run coincided with Medivac-ing my violin to a luthier there. 

In the days leading up to my Singapore trip, the friend Rizal had said would host me still hadn't responded, and I was scrambling to figure out where to get my violin serviced. Luckily, my college friend Peace responded to my desperate plea on Facebook for a couch, and my friend and Singapore-based fellow violinist Jack (who I hadn't seen since I met him five years ago!) pointed me in the direction of a luthier and bow maker in town. Despite my last minute fumblings, I had an amazing time in Singapore--as soon as I stepped off the plane I went straight to the workshop of luthier Wang Shaojun. When I spoke with Shaojun on the phone, by his tone I had assumed he was an older man. Imagine my surprise when I instead saw a lanky guy my age with an apron and a violin scroll in hand. Despite my initial disbelief that this 'youth' was indeed a luthier and up to the task of reconstructing my dismembered violin, it became readily apparent that Shaojun was no amateur. As he looked over my violin and talked me through what needed to be done, I could tell that he possessed incredible intuition and knowledge about his craft. It was an added treat when he let me sit in his workshop to watch him work, and then invited me to play his violins while he worked on mine. (He also took me for my first quintessential Singapore experience--chicken rice for lunch!) It was amazing to observe the precision and confidence with which he made the repairs to my violin, and really fun to talk with him--he's definitely ancient beyond his years (you sort of have to be to be a master of an esoteric craft like this!) but has a great sense of humor at the same time. Long story short, he did a terrific job resurrecting my violin, and I made a lovely friend in the process.

As I mentioned, I got to see my college friend Peace, whose employer had (conveniently for me) sent her to Singapore for a business project. I hadn't seen her in over a year and a half, and catching up with her in the evenings was a blast--she took me to see Singapore's famous Gardens by the Bay and the stadium-sized Chinese New Year carnival by the marina. I also got to see my friend Jack, who I hadn't seen since playing in the National Music Festival in the pint-sized town of Floyd, Virginia, five years prior. We had a terrific conversation about the value of a conservatory education, and it was really wonderful to hear how he has balanced his love of music with a career that is not in performance. I got to meet some friends of Rizal as well when they invited me to a very underground psychedelic trance-meets-acoustic guitar concert. I also had an amazing time kicking around the city by myself --I replenished my soap and bought some thick black eyeliner in Little India, and visited the somewhat dilapidated sculpture garden Haw Par Villa, which is the legacy of the founder of Tiger Balm and depicts stories from Chinese mythology, including some very graphic scenes of punishments in the Ten Courts of Hell. All in all, amazing food and amazing company--I truly hope to go back to Singapore sometime soon.

Singapore photo interlude
Hindu Temple in Singapore's Little India
Mega-trees at Singapore's Gardens by the Bay

This poor person is likely getting sawed in half for not respecting his elders. A cautionary tale if there ever was one.
Immediately upon returning to Bali I launched into balancing hosting with performing. My British friend Ayo, who I met in Hong Kong when she was an exchange student at HKU, came at my invitation on a few days' notice and soon after my entire family came to visit from Texas (and for the last three weeks my aforementioned Wellesley friend and fellow fellow Nora has been visiting). At the same time, I have been juggling tons of performances and gigs with many different musicians at restaurants, recording studios, live music venues, yoga and meditation classes, and even Bali's largest music festival. There were some weeks when nearly every day I had a different concert. I guess that's what you get when you are one of the few, if only, violinists on the island and have a habit of saying yes to everything. 
It wasn't that I was necessarily enthusiastic about all of the performances or performers; I just saw each gig as a good experience in and of itself, as well as an opportunity to build more connections. In fact, there were some pretty unpleasant interactions--the "sound healer" who drastically underpaid her core musicians and told me my parents couldn't have free admission to the concert I was playing in (pro bono); and the medicine man who asked me to play erhu in a recording session for mystic poetry because he wanted a "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon" feeling and then proceeded to criticize everything I did for the next four hours. For all of those encounters, however, I have formed many more really nice relationships and had some very sweet moments--from Agustian and Miyoshi encouraging my endeavors to write and sing my own songs to someone telling me I was shredding my violin like an electric guitar on the main stage of the Bali Spirit Festival, as well as the countless times per day people ask me, "Where's your violin? Won't you play something/play with us?"

Processing towards the temple of the moon in a Balinese ceremony
And yes! The Wozniak clan overcame their travel inertia and ventured all the way to Bali last month! This was a big deal for the fam--my mom is prone to making such comments as, "My bed at home is so comfortable, so why would I ever go anywhere else? And who will watch the dogs?" My dad and sister have more grandiose travel fantasies, but getting any of us to commit is another battle in and of itself, so the fact that this trip happened at all was nothing short of miraculous. It was a difficult journey for them, first because they rarely travel, and second because they drove to Houston and then flew to Bali via Moscow and Singapore. Needless to say, they spent much of their time on the island jet lagged and mildly sick in bed (even nearly a month since they were here, my mom still claims she is jet lagged). Nonetheless, I had a wonderful time seeing them--my dad discovered mung beans and went to town cooking them in various incarnations, my sister wore my parents down until the consented to letting me teach her to drive a motor bike, and my mom soon came to relish the simple joys of wearing loose fitting pants and balancing items on your head like the Balinese women do to and from the markets. We didn't do that much in terms of exploring the island (although we did have a requisite beach day) but just being together and consuming a never ending stack of buckwheat pancakes felt just right. I will be the first to admit that I still cried when they left (and probably always will).

My family left Bali right before Nyepi, or Silent Day, which is one of the most distinctive holidays on the island. In the days leading up to Nyepi, the Balinese construct Ogoh-Ogoh, large papier-mâché statues of hellish demons in which they store evil spirits, parade around the villages, and burn the day before Nyepi. On Nyepi itself, the entire island shuts down--no lights, no talking, no walking outside or driving on the streets--even the airport shuts down for twenty-four hours. The Balinese take Nyepi very seriously; everyone, including tourists, is expected to follow the custom, and village law enforcement goes house to house making sure no one is using their lights. It is a day of self-reflection (or checking Facebook and binge-watching TV, in the case of some members of the younger generations). The one place that is not silent on Silent Day, as it turns out, is the Bali Aga village of Terunyan that I had visited both on my own and with Ayo during her visit. I found out by chance--when I visited last I had intended to bring Ayo to Batur, the volcano in the area, but wasn't planning on trekking out to Terunyan. But, I guess I subconsciously felt pulled back to the village, because before long I realized we were nearly there. I called my friend Nyoman, the onion farmer who I had met when I first went to Terunyan, just to let him know we were in the area.
"Where are you now? Come to the boats--I will meet you there!" he shouted over the roar of his motorbike. He was undoubtedly blazing over potholes and zooming around tight and steep winding curves while we were on the phone, since that what he was doing last time I rode on the back of his bike.

Needless to say, Nyoman survived another episode of reckless driving around the crater lake and met us at the docks, where he gave us tea and we chatted about business these days and the developments in the Bali Nine drug smuggling case. It was a Monday and a slow tourism day in Terunyan, so Ayo and I were about ready to leave when I asked Nyoman how he would be spending his day of reflection on Nyepi.


Nyoman proceeded to inform me that Terunyan is the one village in Bali that doesn't observe Nyepi.
"On Nyepi in Terunyan we cut a cow, and there is a big ceremony in the cemetery, and big cockfighting. No other village in Bali is like this. If you want to come you give me a call."
I thought about it--Silent Day is a quintessential Balinese occasion, and I am certainly against animal cruelty, but to spend Silent Day in the one place in Bali that is not silent? It seemed like a once-in-a-lifetime chance.

Batur and Terunyan photo interlude!

At the base of Batur

Driving to Terunyan is not for the faint of heart
The road had caved in in an avalanche after heavy rains two days before Soraya and I arrived
Feet up!
Lakeside farms on the way to Terunyan

So a few weeks later, in the evening after tearfully bidding my parents farewell, I forewent the large Ogoh-Ogoh monster-burning ceremonies around the island and instead, accompanied by my friend Soraya, drove up into the mountains and down around the crater lake just before the sun set. Even villages neighboring Terunyan celebrate Nyepi, and as we drove through them we heard the sounds of bombs going off (a typical part of rituals that involve burning something) and saw the streets lit with fire. When we arrived in Nyepi, however, it was business as usual for the most part. They had killed a ceremonial cow and made soup for the entire village with it earlier in the day. There are no restaurants or hotels in Terunyan, and so my friend and host Nyoman showed us to our room, which with a large mattress on the floor, an overhead light, and a TV, was extremely luxurious. The water levels had risen so high during this year's rainy season that the family had constructed a rickety pathway from bamboo beams to get to the house, and the room, which looked out on the lake, was only inches away from being flooded. Getting to the bathroom, which was on the opposite side of the compound, required clinging to the wall with one's fingertips, ignoring the large dangling spiders overhead, and crab-walking on a thin ledge so as to not fall in. It was perfect.
View from outside our door
The bathroom door. This picture doesn't do the incredible leap to the ledge justice, sadly
"So, what do you want to do? Go to the hot springs?" Nyoman asked. "My friend owns them."

The hot springs at the base of Mount Batur (on the opposite side of the crater lake) had escaped my mind when I set out to Terunyan, and 10 pm seemed rather late to go trekking in the dark, but after the long drive on hellish roads, soaking under the stars sounded fairly incredible. I was also confused because we would be driving through the other villages celebrating Nyepi, but Nyoman assured us that so long as we got back before midnight it wouldn't be a problem.

Nyoman was so matter-of-fact about the proposition of driving to a hot springs on treacherous roads in pitch-blackness that Soraya and I didn't really consider the possibility that it might be unsafe for us, two women, to go out that night with him and his friend (also named Nyoman). It wasn't until we were on the back of their bikes that I think it occurred to both of us that seen differently, the situation could be a serious lapse of judgment on our parts and quite dangerous. After all, we were alone and defenseless foreign women with two guys we barely knew driving on unknown dark roads. My train of thought went something like this:

"Hmmm, I hope these guys don't rape and murder us at the base of Mount Batur. I did tell tons of people where we were going before I left, and I also have given Nyoman hundreds of dollars in business by recommending him to my friends--I'm pretty sure I am of more value to him alive and happy then dead."

My rationalizing the situation came not from a place of fear, but rather a recognition that, seen by a third-party (my mom), the situation was an incredibly risky, horribly hazardous, almost-certainly fatal one--when in fact I felt quite calm and unconcerned by the fact that we were motoring around backroads with hulking older men.

Now that I have your attention, I will tell you that the Nyomans in fact had only the most honorable of intentions and were perfect gentlemen--after Soraya and I got to the hot springs (which we got in for $2.50 instead of the usual tens or hundreds of dollars people pay), we joked that we had personal bodyguards, as the guys continued to hulk around the side of the springs after we jumped in. It ended up being a wildly fantastic night--we insisted they get in and try the springs (hard to believe that after all those years of living across from them and shuttling tourists there, Nyoman had never jumped in himself!) and we all had fun joking and basking under the stars as the rest of Bali prepared for the upcoming day of contemplation.

The next morning, we got dressed in our ceremonial garb--sarongs and kebayas tied with a sash--and joined the village in the procession to their temple across the lake. The villagers, balancing offerings and lifting up their sarongs to keep them dry, squeezed into precariously rickety motor boats, as there are no roads leading to the temple. Once there, the villagers went up to the temple grounds to pray and participate in the ceremony, which honors the ancestors. The men had new shirts and shoes, and the women were covered in new gold jewelry, as in the days before the ceremony they venture out to the capital and spend heaps of money on new apparel. (Nyoman had spent 700,000 rupiyah--a little over fifty bucks--on new Quiksilver knockoff flip-flops. He acknowledged that they, as well as his new shirts with an enormous Ralph Lauren polo player logo, were likely knockoffs, but the act of buying new clothes with brand names made him proud.) As soon as they arrived many of the men started gambling as well--a part of the ceremony, they contended. Soraya and I were the only outsiders there, and we just tried to stay out of everyone's way as the entire village, ferried on small boats, fit themselves on this coved temple.

Approaching the temple dock
Soraya capturing the scene
With the Taruminyan (good-smelling) tree that allegedly keeps corpses from rotting--the only of its kind in Bali
Skulls (again)
After the ceremony concluded, Soraya, Nyoman, and I stopped by the Terunyan cemetery (see my previous post for more on this!) and then made our way back to the village. Soraya, who was a little under the weather, took a siesta, and I went to see the new main attraction--cockfighting. Cockfighting is actually illegal in Indonesia and I am absolutely against animal cruelty of any persuasion, but I knew that the fights, which again the villagers contest are a ceremonial tradition, would go on with or without me there. I weighed my choices: I could ignore inevitable animal brutality, or I could at least witness and acknowledge it while seeing a unique tradition that is likely centuries-old.

And so I went. I stood out even more--I was the only woman in a circle of hundreds of men yelling and waving hundred-thousand rupiyah ($8) bills in the air (although Nyoman told me that women in other villages gamble on cockfighting). I wanted to stay at the edge of the circle, not too close to the ring, but Nyoman insisted I sit in a ringside chair. Sitting next to the richest men in the village, it was a VIP location, a place where gamblers sit to see and be seen. I was still in my ceremony clothes and everyone started commenting on my great Balinese fashion--but thankfully everyone was very respectful, if curious. (They likely thought I was the wife of one of the richer men I was sitting near.) As the fights started, contenders would kneel with their chickens to size them up, and then two would be chosen to fight. Each man would then hold up his chicken, and the ringmaster and head of the village cockfighting society (whose house Soraya and I were actually staying in) would collect bets. The sound was enormous (see the video below) and so were the bets--I watched people betting hundreds of dollars on the outcome of these fights. It seemed they weren't afraid to bet significant chunks of their income, or even their entire salaries--that day, one man lost 20 million rupiyah (more than $1,500), and another won 28 million rupiyah (well over $2,000). You have to keep in mind that the overwhelming majority of men are farmers, particularly onion farmers, who sell a kilo of onions for a little over a dollar. 

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After the bets were cast--literally, men would throw wads of cash into the ring--they strapped on long blades to the chickens and forced them to peck each other to rile them up. The fights went until only one chicken was standing--it didn't take long, and both of them would be killed shortly after. Winners were also repaid in chicken limbs--I narrowly dodged being swiped with a dismembered leg of the chicken that had just won the fight, awarded to some lucky better. Nyoman told me that even though people win and lose relatively huge sums of money, it doesn't matter so much because people are constantly borrowing and lending to each other. After he won sixty dollars, he immediately lent it all to friends who asked to borrow from him. Is cockfighting humane? Absolutely not. The villagers in Terunyan (and many Balinese people I have spoken with generally) have asserted it is a sacred ceremony; my rebab teacher told me that it represents sacrifice. (He also told me that there is coconut fighting and egg fighting in ceremonies. I have yet to verify this). In a way it's an interesting form of wealth redistribution seeing as everyone participates in these fights, and chances are participants will win and lose at various points over the years. 

Cockfighting knives 
Taking bets
That evening, while Nyepi was still going on for the rest of Bali, I took out a one-person canoe (hand carved, I might add) and paddled around the lake while looking at the stars. The boat was unwieldy and being on the lake in the dark (not far from a ceremony of unburied skeletons) was actually less romantic than I thought, but I have no regrets. The next morning, I woke up at 6 am and walked through the village and up the side of the mountain ridge opposite the volcano. I passed through clouds on the way up and walked by the occasional villager balancing heaping baskets of fruits and crunchy sweets to sell in the next village over, all of them surprised but accepting that I was jalan-jalan, walking around, on the incredibly steep path from the remote village on my own. A woman invited me to her village on the other side of the mountain, but thinking of Soraya still sleeping in Terunyan, I thanked her and told her I had to return--but not before she insisted on giving me some of the sweets she was bringing to the market. 

Terunyan gets a bad reputation in guidebooks; it is described as a village of scammers hostile to outsiders who tout their unusual local traditions to assert their superiority in Bali. Terunyan, with its trash-covered streets, boat culture, onion farms, cultural superiority complex, and of course incredible view of Mount Batur is my favorite place in Bali. It doesn't cater to tourists at all, and the villagers both acknowledge the uniqueness of their customs while holding onto their beliefs strongly. For me it is an incredibly peaceful place--there is an authenticity in everything from the trash that lines the cobbled pathways to the ancient temple that overlooks the fish farms opposite the looming volcano, as well as the customs to which they still adhere. Having had the rare opportunity to be a guest there, I found the people of Terunyan weren't resentful that I was there, but rather somewhere between indifferent and curious that was really refreshing--I didn't feel like I was intruding, and could actually imagine spending a month or more living there. I hope that can happen one day.

Soraya and I looked for Nyoman before we left--despite his insistence that we didn't need to pay him, we wanted to give him some cash as a token of our appreciation for all he had done (most of all, inviting us into his village and sharing their traditions with us). He called me later, pretending to be angry that I had paid him, and offering to buy me credit for my cell phone as a way of thanking me for bringing so many people to Terunyan. 

"No way, Nyoman," I told him. "You just lost six hundred thousand rupiyah on cockfighting. You're going to need that money." 

If you want an amazing guide for the Kintamani area, including the village of Terunyan, Mount Batur (the volcano), and the hot springs, call Nyoman Hariasa and tell him you got his number from Audrey: +62 0819 9956 4455

More belated blog posts coming soon! I hope to be up to date soon. Some final Terunyan photos until then--

Early morning

Terunyan under the clouds